Doubt

So you doubted my love for you for the past 6 months . Meow , it was not . I really really loved you . Stop doubting . Please . I know the request I made yesterday was ridiculous . I'm sorry ... The way you talked to me yesterday literally kills . You never once talked to me like this before . Not even once . You didn't know how I felt . I really really hurts . The tone , the way you looked at me , wasn't the same as before . I didn't want this too . I just cannot take it . Can't take it that every night , I have to cry myself to sleep . Having all the insecurities that literally kills me . Seeing you so happily without me . I really can't take it ... What if , I just die ? Then everything would come to an end . Having to suffer all this , isn't good at all . Yes , maybe I also don't understand the way you feel . But I just couldn't control it yesterday . I miss you so much . I wanted to hug you so much and cry in your arms . But in the end , whose arms was I crying in ? Jiamin's . I couldn't stop crying while typing this . How I hope I can just leave happily . All this , just kills .