Whatever will be , will be

Seriously. You both better maintain before I'm unable to control my temper and make things ugly. You think I'm that strong to handle all this shits? I have to force myself not to think about it Everytime. 

Ever since that day, I'm dead. Feelings all numb. Being understand, tolerating? No shit. People would just take advantage of it and 得寸进尺。seriously. I don't understand what for me being like this when no one else appreciate. You think I don't feel anything? You think I don't dare to make things ugly? Don't force me. Really.
Understand the fucking fact that I'm a human being. You find it nothing? No. I find it something. You won't understand how paranoid I was after seeing those things. A thing that a person usually won't do, suddenly does it. There must be some reason for doing it. 
Is it you doing things that make me cannot take it. Or is it just my imagination and thinking too much of it.

You might be texting me "morning" but her "Morning!" Or "Morning ***!"
 I don't know. I really don't know. Maybe it's just my imagination running real wild.

Ask you why you put. "Just put lorh" there must be a fucking reason. No such thing as "just put lorh" 
I was fine after the incident. Till I found out that it have alr been changed long ago before I REALISE it. What? Am I stupid or what? Am I blind or what? To realize it after so long.
Don't take advantage for the things I should be doing but I'm not, and have let go so much on.

Yes I might not be able to control my temper and the words I blurt out when I'm hot tempered. I'm fucking angry now and trying real hard to control the anger and emotions. 

But trust me, you wouldn't want to see the worser sight of it.