Yeah...

Lying on my bed... Preparing to sleep. And thinking of what swee Lian told me just now. Maybe it's not boyf's problem but my problem. Maybe I just tend to compare the things that Boyf and other people's Boyf do. I admit I tend to get envy when some Boyf do really sweet things to their girlf. And I will have that mentality "how great if my Boyf do this for me. I swear I will get super touch and love him so much more" and then, I tend to hope that Boyf will do that particular thing for me. Yeah I admit. Maybe it's just me. I just expect too much. Was trying to control my tears while swee Lian talked to me just now. I swear I was controlling real hard. But when she leave the lift, I couldn't take it anymore. And then I start to tear and sob. I always get heavily affected by what she said. Well, sometimes she just pick the wrong timing. Either when I'm having menses, or few days before it. Then I start really get real emotional man I swear. Was waiting for the lift just now and I heard liting's laughing so happily with Lester. Well, 他们真的很幸福，很快乐。but for my studies, I swear I really need one person to teach me patiently. Just like Amanda. Not like that yap mehmu. She flare up really easily. LOL.

Till then!