I have changed my working schedule. Monday to Friday, everyday 9am to 9 pm. Saturday 9 hours of working life at Miss Emily. To numb myself from shitty feelings.
Yes it's true that I'm using work to numb myself, to stop me from thinking about you at times.
I still do think of our memories whenever I have nothing to do at work, waiting for bus, or even before I sleep. But I'm proud to say for the past 2 nights I haven't been crying myself to sleep. Cheers to a good improvement of me. Because all I do everyday is to work, get home, bathed and surf on social media awhile and goes to sleep. There's not a lot of time neither do I have the energy to think of unhappiness stuff between me and you. Even if I think, it's just the memories that we've created.
Remembered your holister jacket? You said it was supposed to share between you and me. I bet you've forgotten about what you once said to me though.
But I didn't have. Chance to wear that jacket. Because you know I love that style of jacket where I can just stuff my hands into the pocket when I'm cold, while you're wearing it or you'll just stuff my hand into the pocket to keep me warm. So nice of you though.
It's the 5th Day after you ended our relationship. I'm getting all good, all immune about feelings.
I've did everything I can to protect and keep our relationship going on. You can just said that I have too much demand from you, or I failed to protect this relationship because of my incapability. Whatever. I know I've done everything I could. But at the end of the day you ended it, there's nothing much I can do. I don't want to be the one being so needy to you, begging you to stay. Even if I got you to continue staying with me, your heart isn't with me, what's the point. If your heart if alr with someone else, there's nothing I can do, nothing i can say. But to wish you all the best.
Goodluck my love. All the best for your future.
Do you still think about me at some point of time?...
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