I've said this a thousand time, if you're nothing to me, I won't bother giving a shit to you, calling you. I gave in. But what did I get in the end? It was you Ignoring the calls I've made.
It's not that I don't fucking trust you. But how can I trust girls out there who I don't even know them?
If you're fine not talking to me for days, go ahead. Or even weeks. Just go ahead. I swear I'm not gonna fucking bother you anymore till you contact me.
I'm so sick and tired of trying. So fucking sick and tired of constantly chasing after you.
You think I'm fine with you ignoring me? This few days I'll think of you from time to time. I don't know if you did but I did. Did I even crossed your mind for once these days?
From the start when you knew me. You know I'm a girl with not much confidence. You know that I feel like a shit whenever I stand beside my friends because I'm the only fat one and doesn't know how to dress myself up. I don't draw my brows, eyeliner, put on lipstick or whatever. You are, surrounded by so many girls, so many girls wanting to talk to you, ofcos excluding girls from out clique. If you want me to feel confident among all this girl, I'm sorry I can't do that. Because that's how little my confidence are. Yes you tried to boost my confidence by saying I'm not fat, I'm beautiful and you love me. That's not your fault. I'm the one who always demoralize myself whenever I looked into the mirror.
I really feel like giving up everything. The pile of stress building up because of O's, it's too tedious for me to handle. I can just break down and give up soon. I don't know how long I can hang on with you ignoring me like nothing and all the things that stressing me up.
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