Jealousy

Jealousy. I get that too often already. I get jealous way too easily. Sometimes I was thinking, is it very hard for Boyf to tolerate my jealousy at times? Am I very hard to handle? Am I very demanding? Am I very petty? 有时候是不是我太小心眼了？girls spamming text to bf phone. I tried so hard to pretend that I'm fine. But I can't Luh. I just can't. I not happy my face just show out already. Been dealing with jealousy so much. I just can't get used to it. I can't. I fucking can't. Sometimes I will just think that bf will be much more happier talking to others than me. Cos most of the time I only know how to make him angry and sad.

有时候要哭的时候，没人在，也只能一个人自己哭泣。I really want to cry all out. Inside room, scared my parents suddenly come in. See me cry they confirm ask me what happen what happen. Urghhhhh. 

Should have start asking myself why I so irritating. So easy get jealous. What's with me. So fucking hate myself. Really so hate.......