Quarreled with Boyf today while walking home with him. You know how my heart literally hurts when he just shoot out "是啦我还没有钱" that's the sentence that I don't want to hear the most from his mouth. It hurts me like fuck. I hate to hear him say this kind of thing. I swear I got so upset that I broke down and cry infront of him, beat him and bite him. Idk why I was doing that. But I really can't control. Cry like a mad girl and idk what's got into me. Plus he was continuously smoking 3 sticks of cig while walking. I got so posses off when he put the third stick inside his mouth I literally walk up to him and pull the cig out from his mouth. The most angry thing is that after I return him. He light it up and smoke again.
I'm upset. Literally upset for the whole day. I don't know how to describe this feeling. But I just want to cry it all out. Wanna cry alone. Literally alone.
Hate myself for being like this also. Really hate it. But I can't help it. URGHHHHHHHH
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