Nightmare

Been having nightmare this few days. I swear ever the start of 7th month, I've been having nightmare. Really. The first day of 7th month in the afternoon I had a nap. And I dream that Boyf wanted to leave me. Before O's. And I swear the pain and sadness I have in the dream was really like shit. Kept pleading him to stay and in the end he still left. I remember I woke up feeling damn pekchek and terrible.

The second night of 7th month. I dreamt that me, Boyf and Andrew. We were in a place. Some where like hong kong. And suddenly Boyf just least me standing alone in a quite place with very less people. I remember feeling so terrified. I ran around finding Boyf, spam calling him like mad as I was really afraid. At last I found him in a building. And I just woke up from my sleep. I remember feeling so terrified too. And I tried to sleep back. And then I have another nightmare again. Dreaming that Boyf wanted to leave me again. Out of no reason. He just stop caring me, contacting me. Scared until woke up from my sleep again. 

Sigh. That's why I've been missing Boyf so much today. It's not that I don't trust him or don't have faith in him or what. But I really very long don't have this kind of dream already. It just suddenly happened this 2 days. 

Millions of sigh.......