Here am I having a new blog post again. Yesterday night, before I went to sleep, the scene of my dad confronting klxh kept on appearing on my mind. I did sob a little, but fall asleep after that. Then today, it was still alright for the first half of the day as I have PE and lessons to occupy my mine. After having lunch and I spent some time alone with klxh. That scene appeared again. I swear I tried very hard to control my tears. Sometimes the tears is already at the corner of my eye already. But thank god klxh did realise it. He realised there was something wrong with me and keep asking what happened to me. I told him I was fine continuously as he knew that there was seriously something wrong with me. And then i looked into his eyes, telling myself that im so lucky to have this boy by my side all the time. Im really blessed to have him. Till at a point i saw his eyes red. Tears almost flowing out, I burst out crying. I swear it was the most painful thing on earth to see him cry. He asked me what happened again and I told him the real reason. And there is he, sobbing, Hugging and comforting me that everything is fine now. Stop thinking about it.
My heart is having a super weird feeling right now. The feeling that is unable to describe. It hurts to see klxh cry. I swear. While otw home, I held his hand so hard. I didn't want to let go of his hands. Without a choice, I headed home after that.
Sometime I was thinking. Why am I such a person that is easily jealouse by small little things. Even if it's just a girl giving him a iPhone casing and he used it. Idk whats with me. Sometimes when i saw his phone lighted up with a girl's message, i will have this thinking "orh text lah? Also nothing one" but sometimes i will seriously get mot happy about it.
But today during Chem lesson, I saw him putting our Polaroid into the transparent casing that was given by a girl. I was smiling to myself. Isn't it sweet? A guy that automatically put him and his girl's Polaroid at the back of his phone cover where he can see it anytime.
And now I'm still feeling not good about what happened just now.
Till then...
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