Am I ?

I remember he used to sacrifice so much for me . He skipped band because of me . Just wanted to have more time with me . Even though we're not together yet . He knew the consequences of not going band but yet he just skipped it and accompany me to slack . I remember once he break down infront of me . Seeing him this way , it hurts . It really hurts . There's no way I could comfort him . I just hug-ed him . Hoping he would feel better . I remember him making so much silly faces when we're taking pictures . I remember him being so protective . And he won't let me touch the Broom and sweep the floor . I remember him lying his chubby cheeks on my shoulder whenever we take pictures . I remember him dancing me me out of nowhere and turn me around . I remember he used to whine to me and being a stubborn kid . I remember him treating me like a small little princess , tying my shoe lace for me , wear my shoe , fan me when I'm feeling warm , piggy back me when I'm tired of walking , helping me to pack my bag when school's over . Helping me to wipe my sweat when I'm perspiring , helping me to tie my hair , sing for me and hoping around acting silly . I remember We ran under the rain holding each other hands . I remember he would kiss me goodbye on my forehead whenever he sent me home . I remember he used "Yay!" me and twist whenever he win when we're bickering over small and silly things . I remember him knowing me so well that when I haven tell him a thing , he would know I'm think about .
I remember how we first started out everything ... It wasn't easy for us . At the very first moment when I know you love me , I thought I would not accept you . But all turns out to be the opposite . Everything you did for me , was more than enough , beyond than enough . I remember you told me this " Whatever I do now is not enough , until the day I put a ring in your finger" I remembered I tear after seeing that text . This relationship , was so amazing . Life was awesome with you .
It been 2 weeks since you left my life . Thinking back , am I the one who make this relationship turn so bad ? What if I waited patiently for your text that day ? Everything wouldn't be what it is right now . I would be going out with you this few days , enjoying ourselves . What if I didn't say that I got pissed while waiting for your text ? If I waited patiently for your text , I would still be the most bliss-ed girl on earth now ...